lördag 30 juli 2011
DON'T MIND MY OLD BLOGPOSTS
I'm on Lovewell now and everything is perfect now! I've met so many awesome people that has changed my life forever. :D
lördag 18 juni 2011
I need you, whoever you are...
Today I've tried to push away all the bad thoughts, don't visit Facebook and complain about people having an awesome time and other ignoring my comments, don't visit Twitter to envy all the lucky people in Hollywood and so on. I failed. Big time, haha! But anway, this day was a lot better than yesterday. I met up with Matilda today in Malmö, felt awesome. She's wonderful! She's in my musical class and it felt nice to have someone to nerd talk about all the new Broadway gossip LOL. We ate some ice cream and watched a free ticket concert with my parents, it was very nice. A lot better than just being at home.
I seriously don't know how to get out of this mess. I don't really know what's holding me back you know. I guess the thing that would make me ridiculously happy is to have a little group of people, a little gang around me all the time. You know, I don't need have to have a lot of friends, just a few that I can always rely on and trust. A group of people that will invite and support each other with everything. When I watch Friends on TV I always get to jealous, sure, their friendship is not perfect but at least they have each other. Ooohhh, I sound to depressed I'm sorry you guys, I'm not usually like this. I'm always happy as hell but I don't know anymore, something has happened.
You know what I really would want also? A BOYFRIEND!! Omg, I really need a boyfriend. Well, ok not just a guy to call my boyfriend, but you know, a bestfriend that I can call up in the middle of the night if somethings wrong. I want to have someone to watch horrible movies with on the weekeds, I want to have someone to wake up to next to me and most important, I want to have someone that truly cares about me and that I can call mine. I wonder when I will meet him, he seems so near but still I have no idea who he is. So you know, if there's somebody out there that has a crush on me (that I hardly doubt, haha) PLEASE PLEASE please call me or whatever. I'm waiting for you.
Ok, this was probably the most silliest blog post, ever. Haha!
I seriously don't know how to get out of this mess. I don't really know what's holding me back you know. I guess the thing that would make me ridiculously happy is to have a little group of people, a little gang around me all the time. You know, I don't need have to have a lot of friends, just a few that I can always rely on and trust. A group of people that will invite and support each other with everything. When I watch Friends on TV I always get to jealous, sure, their friendship is not perfect but at least they have each other. Ooohhh, I sound to depressed I'm sorry you guys, I'm not usually like this. I'm always happy as hell but I don't know anymore, something has happened.
You know what I really would want also? A BOYFRIEND!! Omg, I really need a boyfriend. Well, ok not just a guy to call my boyfriend, but you know, a bestfriend that I can call up in the middle of the night if somethings wrong. I want to have someone to watch horrible movies with on the weekeds, I want to have someone to wake up to next to me and most important, I want to have someone that truly cares about me and that I can call mine. I wonder when I will meet him, he seems so near but still I have no idea who he is. So you know, if there's somebody out there that has a crush on me (that I hardly doubt, haha) PLEASE PLEASE please call me or whatever. I'm waiting for you.
Ok, this was probably the most silliest blog post, ever. Haha!
fredag 17 juni 2011
Once again trying to wake up this dead blog
But this time, I think it's for real. I'll see this as my diary since I'm going to through a pretty rough time right now. And no, I don't have suicide thoughts or anything like that. I'm just so ridiculously lonely... ALL THE TIME. And the worst thing, nobody seems to take notice of it. That sucks, like, real hard.
I still have no idea why I write in English...
Ok, So I'll tell you why I feel like this. I've come to this point in my life where I put everything in to my school and education, seriously everything. Not to mention those last weeks before the summer break. We were rehearsing for the big summershow in school and I didn't have time to do anything else and that explains the total emptiness I feel now when the school has ended. I have nothing left, I'm just a lazy wreck watching crappy downloaded movies with a lot of ice-cream, crying and wondering when my teenage life will begin. When I started school in Lund, I gave up everything in my small hometown, including friends. And now that they have moved on and met new friends, I have nobody. And I'm not just saying this because I'm depressed, ok also because of that but it's actually true. I texted almost all of my old friends and everybody had something else planned and nobody asked me to join, that sucks, like real hard.
I've always known that I'm obsessed to have people around me, I'm a typical herd animal. And I've always been lucky enough to have some many amazing people around me. I'm not saying that they're less amazing now but the thing is, they're not my best friends anymore, they're just my...friends that I meet like once a month, you know, we hug each other and asks how the other one are doing these days. Nothing more. Suckssuckssucks. I suck.
More depressed and spontaneous submissions are yet to come. Be aware. I haven't told people about the blog yet, I better not. Hahah.
I still have no idea why I write in English...
Ok, So I'll tell you why I feel like this. I've come to this point in my life where I put everything in to my school and education, seriously everything. Not to mention those last weeks before the summer break. We were rehearsing for the big summershow in school and I didn't have time to do anything else and that explains the total emptiness I feel now when the school has ended. I have nothing left, I'm just a lazy wreck watching crappy downloaded movies with a lot of ice-cream, crying and wondering when my teenage life will begin. When I started school in Lund, I gave up everything in my small hometown, including friends. And now that they have moved on and met new friends, I have nobody. And I'm not just saying this because I'm depressed, ok also because of that but it's actually true. I texted almost all of my old friends and everybody had something else planned and nobody asked me to join, that sucks, like real hard.
I've always known that I'm obsessed to have people around me, I'm a typical herd animal. And I've always been lucky enough to have some many amazing people around me. I'm not saying that they're less amazing now but the thing is, they're not my best friends anymore, they're just my...friends that I meet like once a month, you know, we hug each other and asks how the other one are doing these days. Nothing more. Suckssuckssucks. I suck.
More depressed and spontaneous submissions are yet to come. Be aware. I haven't told people about the blog yet, I better not. Hahah.
måndag 15 november 2010
Uhm..did I mention I was lazy?
So, I haven't posted for some months...that feels good. Haha! I'm sorry, unfortunately I can't say I was too busy because I've had lots of time to post but you know, once again, lazy. Yep. So A LOT of things have happened since my last post, obviously. Should I take it from the beginning?
My summer break included....Fiddler on the Roof, Fiddler on the Roof AND Fiddler on the roof.
So, like I mentioned in my last post, I got an ensemble role in the amazing musical Fiddler on the roof. I'm SO HAPPY I didn't say no to this part, I had a marvelous time! Even though I didn't have any lines or solos I learned so much, not to mention discipline and to act more professional on a working place even though you're a kid. Everybody in the ensemble was so so passionated on what they were doing on stage and backstage that it turned out to be an awesome show! We got nominated for a huge musical price and the critics loved us. It felt amazing to be a part of it.
I played Rebecca, one of the 4 childs to the hatmaker in the musical. It was an annoying little girl that wanted attention from her big sisters all the time, so it was easy as hell to improvise her feelings about everything, I'm used to be playing that part at home haha! I got to act with my old friends Vicky, Tove and Linn again! And I also got to meet so many new amazing people.
Here's Linn, Vicky, Tove and Me hanging out in the dressing room backstage!
After the summer break I started a new school...but that didn't work out in the beginning...
Right in the rehearsals of Fiddler I started..hmm..I don't know what to call it in English. In sweden we call it Gymnasium. That's the school you continue studying after High school. On the gymnasium you're lucky enough to choose a special subject and education, often the thing you want to work with when you grow up. Of course, I choose musical in a big Gymnasium school I Malmö. In the beggining it felt like HELL YES, I met some awesome friends there (that I truly miss everyday) and everything worked out fine. After a while it started feeling wrong, the education felt too...well, ok I'll admit...easy. I didn't have a fun time, only with my friends.
So, I took a deep breath and emailed one of the best schools in Sweden when it comes to the entertainment business. It's called Lunds Dans och Musikal (translated lunds dance and musical). The principal read and wanted to meet me because she thought I had good scores from the audition I went too last summer. ( Yes, I was there but I didn't want to go to the school back then). I got to meet my class and follow them around on their classes for a whole day and It felt so good. So yes, I started Lunds dans och Musikal and it feels awesome! The teachers are awesome and we have all the amazing subject on the day schedule that prepare you to be a musical artist. Well, there's a dance class too that only concentrate on the dancing but I wanted to have everything. I have of couse: Math, Swedish, English and History BUT the rest of the subjects are ballet, jazz, street, acting classes, choir, ensemble choir, individual singing lessons, master class singing lessons (with a teacher from Broadway, how cool is that?!) and lots of more awesome stuffs.
I think I have 156413 other things to tell you guys but this will be it for now. Take care!
xxx Jonna
A picture taken from Fiddler, beautiful! Mazeltov!
My summer break included....Fiddler on the Roof, Fiddler on the Roof AND Fiddler on the roof.
So, like I mentioned in my last post, I got an ensemble role in the amazing musical Fiddler on the roof. I'm SO HAPPY I didn't say no to this part, I had a marvelous time! Even though I didn't have any lines or solos I learned so much, not to mention discipline and to act more professional on a working place even though you're a kid. Everybody in the ensemble was so so passionated on what they were doing on stage and backstage that it turned out to be an awesome show! We got nominated for a huge musical price and the critics loved us. It felt amazing to be a part of it.
I played Rebecca, one of the 4 childs to the hatmaker in the musical. It was an annoying little girl that wanted attention from her big sisters all the time, so it was easy as hell to improvise her feelings about everything, I'm used to be playing that part at home haha! I got to act with my old friends Vicky, Tove and Linn again! And I also got to meet so many new amazing people.
Here's Linn, Vicky, Tove and Me hanging out in the dressing room backstage!
After the summer break I started a new school...but that didn't work out in the beginning...
Right in the rehearsals of Fiddler I started..hmm..I don't know what to call it in English. In sweden we call it Gymnasium. That's the school you continue studying after High school. On the gymnasium you're lucky enough to choose a special subject and education, often the thing you want to work with when you grow up. Of course, I choose musical in a big Gymnasium school I Malmö. In the beggining it felt like HELL YES, I met some awesome friends there (that I truly miss everyday) and everything worked out fine. After a while it started feeling wrong, the education felt too...well, ok I'll admit...easy. I didn't have a fun time, only with my friends.
So, I took a deep breath and emailed one of the best schools in Sweden when it comes to the entertainment business. It's called Lunds Dans och Musikal (translated lunds dance and musical). The principal read and wanted to meet me because she thought I had good scores from the audition I went too last summer. ( Yes, I was there but I didn't want to go to the school back then). I got to meet my class and follow them around on their classes for a whole day and It felt so good. So yes, I started Lunds dans och Musikal and it feels awesome! The teachers are awesome and we have all the amazing subject on the day schedule that prepare you to be a musical artist. Well, there's a dance class too that only concentrate on the dancing but I wanted to have everything. I have of couse: Math, Swedish, English and History BUT the rest of the subjects are ballet, jazz, street, acting classes, choir, ensemble choir, individual singing lessons, master class singing lessons (with a teacher from Broadway, how cool is that?!) and lots of more awesome stuffs.
I think I have 156413 other things to tell you guys but this will be it for now. Take care!
xxx Jonna
A picture taken from Fiddler, beautiful! Mazeltov!
lördag 31 juli 2010
My ridicolous long first post in my ridicolous unknown blog
Hi my invisible readers! I haven't introduced the blog to anyone so I'm basically just writing to myself right now. Silly huh? Anyways, why re-start a blog once again? And why on English and not Swedish? - You want a serious answer? Go dig for it, cause I don't know why. I love reading blogs but I've never really seen the joy of blogging myself. I guess I'm to lazy. I've always created these silly goals in my head that I will create like this unique and epic blog when I get famous, but face it, when's that gonna happen? And if it happens I will probably not give a damn about a silly blog on blogspot.com, haha. So I thought I would start one right now, So here you go. Jonna's blog: zany, happy and a total misfit.
The description couldn't be anymore correct, It's exactly what I am. I basically the none-bullied girl that really should be bullied because of my weirdness, but I'm not. I'm not pretty loved by everyone though, but that's a different story, that is called the teenages.
My friends describe me as zany, happy and funny but the real feeling inside is probably that I'm a total misfit. But that's not bad is it? Have you ever heard the song Misfit by Amy Studt? It's the most amazing song ever and I never thought that a silly song could really help you but this one is different. It's not just a song, it my guide to how to stay on the earth with my pride of just being myself. Oh, this text sound very boring? Is it fun to read? I guess not, I can talk about something more fun instead of continue writing the emo text.
So, like 90 % of my life contains my singing, dancing and acting. It's the thing I like to do, not always what I DO, that's impossible if you live in a small town in the dead south Sweden. The last open casting I was to for a big musical was for Annie 2005, crazy don't you think?
So most of the time on the days I'm just dreaming and talking about it. You know, standing in front of the mirror and pretending you've won an oscar, talking to your poor mom for hours about how angry you are over some random girl that took your role that you didn't even fit for. But I like it, I actually like that I'm not getting everything served up on a silver plate. Getting a lot of "no's" makes you grow as a person and actress. You can be more grateful over the small thing you get and you will totally freak out if something big and amazing finally reaches you, and not that cute girl in your school. Even if I haven't gotten anything big yet I can definitely say that I've come far, I'm just 15 you know. If you're interested in this too I should really recommend you reading my blog starting today. Because this is exactly what I will talk about, I will not talk about small things I've succeded(like doin the dishes) I will talk about these crazy dreams and my road to reaching them. It will probably not just take year, maybe for even five but I know that I'll definitely reach someday, I can feel it. So follow me now, we're starting with an ensemble role in Fiddler on the roof and then we'll continue with something this fall? Who knows what that can be? Nobody knows, that's why I love my hobby so much, the most rare thing and opportunity can show up any second, and I'll be more ready than you'll probably imagine in your wildest dreams.....
The description couldn't be anymore correct, It's exactly what I am. I basically the none-bullied girl that really should be bullied because of my weirdness, but I'm not. I'm not pretty loved by everyone though, but that's a different story, that is called the teenages.
My friends describe me as zany, happy and funny but the real feeling inside is probably that I'm a total misfit. But that's not bad is it? Have you ever heard the song Misfit by Amy Studt? It's the most amazing song ever and I never thought that a silly song could really help you but this one is different. It's not just a song, it my guide to how to stay on the earth with my pride of just being myself. Oh, this text sound very boring? Is it fun to read? I guess not, I can talk about something more fun instead of continue writing the emo text.
So, like 90 % of my life contains my singing, dancing and acting. It's the thing I like to do, not always what I DO, that's impossible if you live in a small town in the dead south Sweden. The last open casting I was to for a big musical was for Annie 2005, crazy don't you think?
So most of the time on the days I'm just dreaming and talking about it. You know, standing in front of the mirror and pretending you've won an oscar, talking to your poor mom for hours about how angry you are over some random girl that took your role that you didn't even fit for. But I like it, I actually like that I'm not getting everything served up on a silver plate. Getting a lot of "no's" makes you grow as a person and actress. You can be more grateful over the small thing you get and you will totally freak out if something big and amazing finally reaches you, and not that cute girl in your school. Even if I haven't gotten anything big yet I can definitely say that I've come far, I'm just 15 you know. If you're interested in this too I should really recommend you reading my blog starting today. Because this is exactly what I will talk about, I will not talk about small things I've succeded(like doin the dishes) I will talk about these crazy dreams and my road to reaching them. It will probably not just take year, maybe for even five but I know that I'll definitely reach someday, I can feel it. So follow me now, we're starting with an ensemble role in Fiddler on the roof and then we'll continue with something this fall? Who knows what that can be? Nobody knows, that's why I love my hobby so much, the most rare thing and opportunity can show up any second, and I'll be more ready than you'll probably imagine in your wildest dreams.....
måndag 26 juli 2010
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